afraid

today is xmas eve.
and im @ home. no plans of going out.
the weather was wet.. and its still wet.

there are so many things i wanna let out.
but i dunno where shud i start.

if u didnt noe me well enuf..
many might juz tot im juz one serious-face looking fella w/o any sense of emotions
tapi tidak ramai tau tad behind tad guise..
im juz an ordinary guy too.
seorang insani..
ada rasa hati..
ada perasaan..

but recently.. my heart sank much deeper
and saw old sparks and new ones.
feeling of fear kicks in..
tads where im afraid.

afraid nt because it wont work..
afraid of its concequences..
neither do i wan to lose any either.

coz there was a time when it was asked to rank the people i luv..
and the answer appeared top as compared to gf/bf.
shocking isnt it?
coz i treasure them more than i treasure u.

on da way back..
my eyes were damped..
heart was heavy..
although all seems oki..
but..

passing.of.Nov

jeng.jeng.jeng..
da pn sampai december..
it THE month where i like most. hurhur..
one of the many reasons is my birthday. =))

anyway.. november juz passed.
alot of things had happened.
one of which was a friend of mine juz got engaged!! woohooo~ Congrats dude..

oh yea.. b4 nassir’s pertunangan..
the week b4.. i’m down wif high fever.. damn shit laaa
i tot telan panadol da oki.. sekali melarat la beb..
nasib baek tk mampos.. tapi lagi sikit GOL!! hahahaha

went to musica fantasia 3 @ ITE Simei..
the band was oki.. nice repertiore
but the oboe player.. OMG laa.
go play the triangle or sumting pls.. nvr touch tad oboe again..
SUMBANG!!

hahahaa..
ippt due tis month..
nids training, training, training.. haizz..
anyway.. off da shower.. Nk mandii..

hahaha.. tends to bangun lambat tis holiday.. loL~